today simply crashed, have been going nonstop for awhile, and it was time to crash and even a migraine all afternoon, and got all triggered off again by a newsletter I thought I'd unsubscribed from and that hurt. tried to get out for a walk and to see the hood, but couldn't do much. I think I just need to meet people here. it's like leaping from a sense of groundlessness into another sense of groundlessness, and scary. I like my colleagues and the job is interesting, but it was a pretty hard crash. drinking tea and trying to be mellow.